
During the week, I had once again to defend the fact that I use a pseudonym on the internet. There are those who hate that others choose to remain anonymous and blame every bad behavior on the fact that they are "hiding" and I can understand their position, but at the end of 2002 when I had the opportunity to become a model on the internet via http://www.kaikura.net this was one of the first things I decided to create - a pseudonym. Never was a single psychopath going to look me up in the phone book! Today there are thousands of people around the world who have seen the photos and I'm glad that I have protected not only myself but also my family from unwelcome attention. Those who know me - my family, my friends and those I meet outside the internet knows who I am so it's fine as it is. Moreover, I consider that a pseudonym is not exactly the same as being anonymous. I stand by every word I write and those who want can contact me via my blog or my email.
It is fine as it is, just perfect. Long ago in The Hague, I met a young American exchange student on the tram. He came over and told me that he recognized me from the internet. He had seen the photographs at one time two years earlier and he had no idea that I was living in The Hague. Fun! and also once in Brussels there was one person who came up and said hello. After ten years I can count on one hand those meetings. I can not imagine what life is like for those who are famous - to no longer be able to go anywhere without people coming up presenting themselves.
But back to the topic, the pitfalls of the written word. During the week I also got one of these typical emails on Facebook, a young man who wrote "I want to lick your legs." You who make this effort should know that I will just delete your emails and also delete you from my friends list. Keep your thoughts to yourself where they belong, I'm simply not interested. But for once (this week I seem to have done a lot of things contrary to common sense) I answered him and wrote: "Would you want your sister or your mother to get such a comment?" He replied immediately, "I'm sorry" he wrote, "I regret it." I was still annoyed and gave him another rebuke, whereupon he got annoyed - which perhaps in some ways proved that he truly repented ... for this is the problem.
A person you have never met, never seen in the eyes but maybe he is very good at writing - how will you ever know that he really means what he writes? And even if you've met him - the written word without voice, without facial expressions - without all the trillions of communications that sight and smell and touch transfer leaves too much to the imagination.
I am a reading person with a rich imagination. Give me a good novel and I forget the world around me. My friends can talk loudly ABOUT me and I do not hear them. If not every day, then every week, I struggle with this fantasy - not to take what someone says to me personally especially not at work. Not to over-interpret what is being said or done. Not to put sentences between the lines and above all not to jump to wrong conclusions. Sometimes it feels as if I have not learned anything at all during twenty years, I continue to repeat the same mistakes over and over again creating unnecessary problems.
A piece of reality - one too large large piece of imagination
Det finns fördelar med att vara anonym på nätet. Jag har funderat mycket av o till hur jag ska göra. Ett tag när jag fick hotelser för mina åsikter att den svenska vargstammen bör hållas på en rimlig nivå (det räckte med det!) så tänkte jag att starta en ny blogg med pseudonym. Men sen överväger fördelarna med att vara öppen. Sen behöver man inte öppna upp alla vägar mellan sina olika nätfora.
Roligt att du tittade in på min blogg,det var länge sedan!
Det är sant, fast jag leder numera en hel del trafik hit från facebook och twitter. Tyvärr är de flesta på facebook ändå bara intresserade av bilderna, att läsa igenom ett stort sjok text ligger inte för dem. Men jag upplever det nästan som tvärtom - att jag genom att använda en pseudonym på sätt och vis kan vara mer öppen än om jag använde mitt riktiga namn.
Du gör inte fel med en psudonym. I gamla tider trodde man att den som kände en persons verkliga namn hade makt över hennom. I dagens IT-värld är det SANNT. Jag funderar själv på att anonymisera mig på nätet, men det är ett väldigt bökigt beslut.

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